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[17 Feb 2005|06:23pm] |
because i need a new start
because i'm over the whole drama
because i've got friends that loves me..
im starting afresh.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _readysexgo
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| sometimes i get ok |
[16 Feb 2005|09:28am] |
i spend my minutes sometimes feeling okay..
i start making a list in my head about the good and the bad..
i've loved him a lot...no doubt. i've had very good memories with him..
but nothing would push back the fact that he is a confused person
who can't think, a cheater..
i would love to concentrate on the bad but my heart keeps telling me
that deep deep down, i know he is a good person..
i know he prolly never did wanted to hurt anyone..
they say to let him think and finally grow up is to leave him alone..
i agree, but that's like the hardest thing i have to do..
pretend i'm ok and act as though i don't love him..
i know one day i'll prolly look back, feel silly and have someone new alrdy..
but right now, it's really difficult..
i love him, i love him so so much.
babe, i hope u feel better soon..
im sorry things didn't work out between us..
people may change but some thing always remain..
i've loved you and will always love u...
etched in my heart, u'll always be..
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| exhausting cycle. |
[16 Feb 2005|09:06am] |
i hate feeling like this, really.
im not so strong as i look..
i go out, talk to my friends.. act like im ok
but deep down, the hurt is cutting me like a knife.
i miss him, i wanna see him..i want i want i want..
but im not gonna get 'coz it is so not gonna happen..
i can't wait for this hurt to be gone..
i hate waking up in the morning feeling empty..
alone and i have nothing to be happy about..
*sigh* take this pain away from me...now.
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| since u've been gone |
[15 Feb 2005|11:01pm] |
do u ever think about me?
do u ever cry urself to sleep
in the middle of the night when u're awake
are u calling out for me?
do u ever reminisce..
i can't believe im acting like this..
know its crazy, how i still can feel ur kiss
i miss u so much and i dont know what to say.
i've becomed so confused and messed up
i encourage him to go for her..and vice versa..
why am i doing this when all i want is him?
why am i acting like this when i really don't wanna
see them together? i so do want him to be happy
but happy with me. am i too selfish?
i hate me so much..
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| heartfelt words |
[14 Feb 2005|12:08pm] |
Ive been waiting all day for ya babe
so won't you come sit and talk to me
and tell me how we're gonna be together always
hope you know that when this late at night
I hold on to a pillow tight
I think 'bout how you promised me forever
I never thought that anyone could make me feel this way
now that you're here boy all I want is just a chance to say
get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
cause I know about her (move)
and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)
tell me why you looking so confused
when I'm the one that didn't know the truth
how could you ever be so cold?
you go behind my back and call my friend
boy you must 've fall and bumped your head
because you left her number on you phone
so now that after all that you've said and done
maybe I'm the one to blame but
to think the one that you could be the one
well it didnt work out that way
I wanted you right here with me
but I have no choice you've got to leave
because my heart is breaking with
every word I'm saying, I gave up everything I had
on something that just would not last
but I refuse to cry
no tears will fall from these eyes
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| uh uh.. |
[08 Apr 2004|02:26pm] |
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Woops, if u're reading this, u're prolly not my friend yet. If you would like to read my entries, comment to be added. No worries, i won't bite...
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